weakness

Sin is anger

That's why I run from it

Anger isn't fun

I will never understand

Why people boast about being angry

It doesn't make you a good person

It makes you weak

Anger is almost like being drunk

You don't think

Do things that you normally wouldn't

Say things that you'll regret later

When you let anger take over

Nothing good comes from it

Everyone gets angry

It's a part of being human

But just because you get angry

Doesn't make you special

If you get angrier than someone else

Your not special

Your not all that

Your actually WEAK!

Happy thoughts anyone?

Trying to write about something happy

Deep, mushy and all 

Here goes

After the rain, there's a rainbow

With me

When its pissing down rain

It can be soooo...sad doesn't even cut it

But it'll have to do

But when the rain stops

The rainbow is so fucking awesome

You know how you have a sweet moment with a crush or blah blah

You get butterflies and all mushy like

I get tingles in my heart

Its my high

LOL

Well this is a weird happy blog

Hopeless at writing

Anyway back to depressing blogs

Wondering about the past

What is it about the past that makes us cling on

Is it the memory?

The memory of the feeling?

Being hurt?

Or being happy?

See I can think back to my childhood

A bad time

For example

When I would get hit for doing something bad

Yeah actually it does kind of hurt

But its more funny than anything

Then you think about verbal abuse

And wonder why it still hurts

To replay that moment in your head

Its like your heart can rewind to that moment

And feel everything all over again

But all the things I have let go

My heart can't remember

I think thats called actually moving on

Moving on being something I've spent years working on

I'm quite good at

But then again

I have no idea where I'm going with this

Its funny how you slowly start to see where you stand with people

Slowly but surely you start to see

You see how far they'll go

Should you compare it to yourself?

How far you'll go?

Maybe you should, maybe you shouldn't...

Problem with actually comparing is that...

It really hurts when you do the math

And see that you might go further

Then they actually want to

So when you do the math

And sum it all up

What do you do then?

Find someone who will actually

Go as far as you would?

Or make an exception?

As for me?

I make the exception!

When you love someone

You really have no choice but to make the exception

But I'd be lying if I said I was ok

I've never been so confused in my life

Why is only one of us confused?

Am I being insecure?

Everything I have learnt

Im all confused

Why am I wrong

Why was I wrong

Am I wrong

Wondering...it never gets you anywhere

I've learnt that from every relationship I've been in

See when you'd go further then they would

It makes you wonder

How much...

How much?

It brings anger, confusion

But then again

Everyone is different

Everyone has their own way of doing things

I wish my way of doing things wasn't so extravagant

I need to pause for a moment

And think...

Everyone sees wrong

They have no idea

And yet they think they do

Couldn't really care less for their thoughts

Annoying

MYOB

Up until today I still think men are the most ugliest type of creatures in the world

I can never trust each and everyone of them

I gotta hate some

Men can be so uptight and 'dominant'

Some think their so dominating that they're really just cowards

Some walk with that swag, saying thats just how they walk

Swag wont get you anywhere REAL good

Matter of fact you look like a retard that can't walk properly

I have so much anger towards men

And lately I've been taking it out on my man

I never realised how much I actually can't stand men

But some men I love

Some men I trust

Very few though

If its hard for me to trust my Dad

Then imagine anyone else....

When younger, I used to hate women

Because all they would do is bitch, go behind your back

Then I learnt that men do the exact same thing

Only thing I have to learn, is that not all men and women are like this

But the life goes on

We move on

Without looking back

I love you so much

But I will see you again