Day Out and About

So today we went around a bit. Baby can be real unpredictable in the car...one time she'll be okay, the next she'll be fussy. Pretty much all up today we were travelling quite a bit. I'm surprised she even got some sleep, because usually when we are out she hardly sleeps.

We dropped her Dad off at work then gave her grandparents a visit, I had an appointment so we went to that, then we payed a visit to her Aunty before picking her Dad up from work and heading home, so, pretty busy day. She wasn't that fussy today, surprisingly. Yesterday she was real fussy despite the fact we were home all day.

That's about it for the day....

I was thinking though, about when she was first born, I probably should have woken her up for feeds during the day, because she would sleep for hours on end during the day, and at night she was so fussy. Anyway, that was just a random thought.

Sleep Depravation

Decided to start blogging about the daily life of mother-hood, well my experience in being a mother.

Today sleep depravation caught up with me, considering I haven't had a full nights rest since baby was born which was over four months ago, its not really surprising. Though my Husband would be more than happy to take over a couple of nights so I can get some sleep, he can't because our baby is breast fed.

That is something else other Mothers should really know about. I've heard so much talk about your breast milk running out blah blah. Your breast milk supply completely depends on how much your baby is taking. The more your baby eats, the more your breast milk supply will be.

After I gave birth, it was soon Christmas and I had a few drinks, so what I did was I put my baby on formula and I pumped every two hours...and from the time I stopped drinking I gave it 24 hours from there until I could feed her again while constantly still pumping and dumping milk. When I could feed her again I think my supply went down a bit but I kept at it. I let her eat as much as she wanted and for as long as she wanted because I knew the milk supply would come in. Also I spoke to a breast feeding expert in the hospital and she said that is where a lot of mothers go wrong. Mothers think they don't have enough milk so they give their baby formula and end up weening their baby onto formula.

Anyway back onto today, I was real tired because last night baby was up for ages from about 12am and she was real fussy, so we ended up having to bath her and reading a book to her in order for her to sleep. I try to go to sleep as early as I can so I can get up at 5:30am to go to the gym before my husband goes to work.

So pretty much I didn't end up going to the gym, I had a bad headache and felt like complete shit. So I stayed in bed and went to sleep. Of course I woke up feeling so much better. But my day was pretty much wasted because of how tired I was. I'm just glad that stupid headache is gone.

In general today baby was pretty fussy, I'm pretty sure she's teething because she's not usually this fussy, either that or she's just getting older and needs more entertainment. She's staring to cry for things, like my phone lol. I showed her how to splash water when she has a bath and she loves it now. It's lovely to watch her grow up. Im excited for every single step she takes in the process.

Her sleeping patterns aren't very good though, they're very irregular at the moment. I'm trying to set a routine but with everyday life it's a bit hard. She still can't sleep through the night, she still wakes up for feeding. I hope it's not a habit. I can not wait until she does sleep through the night though. I'll be heading back to Uni in the next month so it would be really good if she would sleep through the night.

RELIABLE!? not!

It has become apparent

That you can not rely on family

You can only rely on yourself

Family is thought to be relied on

Simply because they're family

WRONG!

Used and Bruised .... Appreciate

When you have someone sucking the life out of you

You are supposed to get away from them

But what if this someone is your Mother?

What if this someone is your Father?

What if this someone is your life time partner?

Your sister!

Your brother!

I am yet to find the answer!

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When you can't get what you want

Think for a second

How much will this thing that I want

Affect me in the near future?

So maybe I really want it

But if I don't have it later

I probably would forget about it

BE HAPPY WITH WHAT YOU HAVE!

(N2S)

Decisions! Decisions! Decisions!

Been making decisions my whole life

Decisions you make will affect anyone

 Who loves and cares for you

But you must remember

That the person who will be affected the most

By your decision

Is yourself!

People might not be happy with it

But as long as you are

Go for it!

Your life is lived by you

So live it for you and what you believe in!

Can't trust you =)

People taking advantage of other people

Just remember

What goes around

Comes around

Your lies and deceit

Have taught me not to trust you

I have love for you

But no trust

This can apply to anyone

From family to friends

Bottom line

Family will always be there

Friends might not

It doesn't make either safe

From being untrustworthy

HEALTH BLOG #1

GENETICLY MODIFIED FOODS

• Junk Foods
• Corn (Anything with corn ingredient)
• Soy 
• Canola 
• Sugar Beets

Go for organics =)

Refference:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3HYNBY5IKAQ&list=PLFE3408714120E383&index=1&feature=plpp_video

Journey

One person can change

But then again

Was it them?

Or you?

Everyone is always saying its someone else.

I have an issue

I thought it was resolved

But, the problem still lingers

Things I've learnt and I'm still learning =)

Due to past experience and just observing

I've come to realise that

Everyone has an opinion

I DEFINATELY have opinions on everything I see

And anyone and everyone I meet

Sometimes I won't though...

Simply because

What I see happening isn't worth worrying about

Or

What I hear simply doesn't tickle my fancy ;P

(I always find that saying "tickle my fancy" funny haha)

Or

I just really don't give a fu$$!

It's taken me time and practice to get to the stage that I'm at with not giving a fu$$

But everything I went through most definately got me here

And I'm loving it.

I'll admit it

Sometimes I slip

And things get to me

Or

Things really do bug me secretly

SO!

To the point!

I've learnt that

You can't let every little thing bug you

You can't let people's thoughts and words get to you

If you let other peoples opinions get to you

Then your not really living life for yourself

And most of my life

I lived to keep mainly my parents happy

It was hard

Because it meant sacrificing my happiness

But I grew older

And grew tired

Of living life for the happiness of others

So when I finished high school

I stopped

Started slowly living for me

And if you weren't my Mother or Father

Your opinion honestly came in one ear

And out the other

I was already living for them

And that was where I drew the line

They were my only exception to sacrificing my happiness

People disagreeing with your actions can be understandable

Ok!

So you don't like what I'm doing

Nice to know!

Then leave it at that

When you sit around worrying about what other people think

And what they might think of you

It's dead set just living life for them

And honestly

If you do what they think you shouldn't

It really won't kill them

Because what you decide will effect you more than it would anyone else

That doesn't mean

Don't accept constructive criticsm and what not

I mean, just know that its still your decision

And if you make a wrong turn

Pick yourself up

Head forward

Ignore peoples negative bullshu$$

And keep walking!

Negativity should be deleted immediately

Don't need it

I think there is so much that can be spoken about all this

It's just how I try to live my life

I was fortunate to be bullied by most people that are close to me

You all taught me this =)

Don't let Shi$$ people bug you

Worry about yourself and what ever else you need to worry about

Discreet =)

Motivation

Trying to find some

Here are some

Focus on yourself!

Your biggest motivation should be yourself

Others should be your inspiration

If any negatives...DELETE

WAYS TO DELETE:

Stay away from them

Don't listen to them

Do it for you.



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She my little princess =)

Confusion has hit the roof

Good days turned dim

Im talking smack =P

Feel useless a bit

Feel tired and puffy faced!

I don't think the clothes
 that used to fit me before pregnancy
will fit me after!

Im hungry

She keeps kicking me

She makes me happy

I love my little girl so much

Cant wait till you get here my little munchkin! ;P

I can't hear

Badly need to get my ears cleaned out!

Speed Stack Pumped

Ingredients: Betaine Anhydrous, Creapure Creatine Monohydrate, Glucuronolactone, Carnosyn Beta - Alanine, L-Arginine, Micronized L-Citrulline, Micronized Taurine, Choline Bitartrate, Caffeine.

BETAINE ANHYDROUS (Trimethylglycine):

What is it?

It's a nutritional supplement

May cause:

• diarreha
• stomach upset
• nausea
• increase cholesterol  levels on persons that are obese or with kidney problems

Can be used for depression.

REFERENCE: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trimethylglycine

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CREAPURE CREATINE MONOHYDRATE:

What is it?

Another supplement

May Cause:

• Increase in strength and muscle mass

Recent study shows it has no long term effect on kidneys or liver functions

REFERENCE: http://www.myopure.com.au/creatine-monohydrate.html

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GLUCURONOLACTONE:

What is it?

A natural occurring chemical that is important for nearly all connective tissue 

May Cause:

• Detox

REFERENCE: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Glucuronolactone

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CARNOSYN BETA - ALANINE:

What is it?

A lactic acid

May Cause:

• Increase in training capacity
• Increase in strength
• A delay in muscle fatigue

REFERENCE: http://www.nutrabio.com/Products/beta_alanine.htm#.UFFVH47rZFI

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L-ARGININE:

What is it? 

It's an a-amino acid

May Cause:

• Rapid muscle recovery
• Decrease in blood pressure 
• Lung Inflammation and worsen asthma
• Decrease in stress hormones

REFERENCE:http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Arginine

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MICRONIZED L - CITRULINE

What is it?

It's an a-amino acid

May Cause:

• Reduce muscle fatigue

Rind of watermelon is a good natural source of citruline

REFERENCE: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Citrulline

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 MICRONIZED TAURINE

What is it?

It's an amino acid

May Cause:

• Detoxifying

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CHOLINE BITARTATE

What is it?

It's a type of salt

May Cause:

• Enhanced athletic performance
• Reduction in cholesterol levels
• Lower blood pressure
• Improvement in memory
• Stomach aches
• Diarrhoea  

REFERENCE:http://www.livestrong.com/article/212268-what-is-choline-bitartrate/

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CAFFEINE

We all know what caffeine does =D

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9 weeks and 5 days

So today the symptoms I had were pretty usual

Better though

I woke up feeling awesome this morning

And then I made the stupid mistake of eating eggs

I really think I should stay away from them

They hurt my stomach so much

Though I know its really good for baby

Other then that, same old nausea

Its worst when Im in my Fiances room

There is a scent in there that smells really awful to me

Funny thing:

Im the only one that smells it

Superhero nose!

I hate that feeling I get in my stomach where it needs to eat

Its not like "Oh Im hungry"

Its more like "I have no intestines...mmmm"

So tired now though from going to Ikea

Was nice though

It was great to really get out

I loved it

Picturing our house and furniture

It was awesome

Very tired

9 weeks and 2 days

I'm thankful for everyday that passes and I go along further into my pregnancy

I can't wait for my little baby to be born

Symptoms for today include

Nausea...

I was fine this morning then towards the afternoon I've been feeling sick

And been feeling that way ever since

Dizzy, with slight headaches when I was at church

My first craving ever....for pig

I need to vent on here though

First of all

I'm more then happy to deal with my own problems

To be honest I wouldn't have it any other way

You warned me, I got burnt

Now you want nothing to do with me

So be it!

I don't know anything

I'm going with my insticts

They telling me not to worry about all this

It will get better

Well I hope it does soon

The one person I normally turn to isn't around at the moment

But I'm just going to be strong for my little one

I'm in a ditch

But I refuse to stay there

I refuse to sit there and be upset about falling

I fell, and now I'm going to get up

Might struggle

But there is a man I can always count on

That would be God

<3

THANKYOU FATHER!

6 weeks and 2 days

Its been a while but I just came to post a pic of my 6 week belly

Im exhausted, and on top of that, Im sick, I am trying VERY hard to just listen to my body and eat what it wants.

I'm real busy with school too and have no time to be tired but I am so TIRED baby keeps taking all my energy

Anyway, my belly shot

5 weeks and 3 days

I went to the doctors today...and NOTE: cramps during early pregnancy, are perfectly fine, as long as there is no bleeding! Took a blood test as well for me and the baby

Happy =)

Today I've just been crampy and tired and hungry! But there is nothing here that I can eat...

Went window shopping with the other half too

Tried doing work today and OMG made me so tired.

Im so hungry but I dont know what to eat, got to eat something...Anyway Im too tired to stay on

and blog any further

5 weeks and 2 days

I've hit a rock bottom

Thanks to my pregnancy I go in and out of depression. I haven't been able to study, do my work....I have to work extra hard to pass now. I believe I can do it. Because I have to do it, at least for my baby

Going to the doctors tomorrow, I just need reasurance that everything is going smoothly with my baby!

I hope everything goes well

As far as wedding plans go?

Im having a wedding soon!

I have a lot of fears, but more just excitement

I refuse to focus on negatives, cos mistakes have been made. My baby is no mistake, but the timing is just a tad wrong haha

Negatives include finance, rushing everything now, cant do things the way we planned

But I couldnt be happier, I accept the responsibilities and I wouldnt have it any other way. I'm carrying life, and I think its a wonderful blessing. I'm happy despite what anyone says...Couldnt care less people, I love my baby, and you will too =P

Symptoms today? and Yesterday!

Yesterday...Constant crying...and cramping

Today...Less crying, tantrums...cramping bearly hurt but I felt it still, TIRED AS!

Today has been a rough day... Stressing me out and shit...NO MORE!!!

From now on? Its smooth sailing....if I get stressed Im just going to leave what ever it is thats stressing me...Dont want anything happening to baby!

5 weeks and 1 day

So, its 2:24 in the morning. I went to sleep pretty early but I had to wake up for dialysis, and I haven't been able to go to sleep.

Yesterday I took my parents to a function, I was already tired because I woke up early in the morning and couldn't go back to bed.

Symptoms today included light cramping, I've been craving biscuits and I'm really hot right now.

I'm too tired to blog,

Anyway other symptoms too included head aches, CONSTANT on and off

Yesterday I chucked the maddest fit, throwing over the table, chair and bins because my fiance was being a hypocrite.

Im so tired.

5 weeks prego

So yesterday I told my parents, The night before that, my Fiance had told his.

He said his parents didn't take it very well. His mum wasn't surprised and neither was his grandma. His dad however was real happy. When he mentioned marriage his grandma walked off. I was kind of offended when he told me that, but oh well... she was upset. I don't know though, to me it just seems like she doesn't like me.

We told my parents he did all the talking... I think I probably should've been the one to tell my parents but it made him feel better so I was like "oh what the hell" *shrug*. My mum cried, and my dad dissed me too the max, saying to my Fiance that his gonna have a hell of a life with me because I don't listen. That really pissed me off, made me go cold to the point where I don't care what he thinks. I knew my mum would be heaps upset. But she didn't diss me thankfully... I still feel cold towards my dad, I can't help it, I don't feel remorse, I'm having a kid, whats done is done, and Im happy.

My parents are just worried about their reputation, I'm really sorry, but I'm not.

After we told my parents we went and spoke to my Fiance's mum. She wasn't too happy at all either. I think they would've preferred for us not to keep the baby. I detest the idea, the thought even. I love my bubba already. She was pretty much scared, it kind of seemed like she thought I was going to be a neglectful mum. I was calm about it though cos I know she's just worried but yeah once again I couldn't care less what anyone thinks, when it comes to negativity, my Fiance's family seems to just focus on the negative... I mean that's normal cos it's just reality but DAMN man! The more I write about this conversation, the more I get mad. I'm just glad I was ok the entire time, but thinking back on it, I'm mad now.

I'm nervous about living with them when baby is born so I don't know, might need to chat with the other half about that, I guess I just need closure that they won't be all up in my business.

Today is real ugly weather...

Anyway discussing finance with the other half we do things quite differently, I just have to submit which is hard for some reason... I don't mind doing it his way as long as I know whats going on and it makes sense to me, as in I understand whats  going on.

I have to get my shit together in school, work hard and take good care of myself and baby. Other half bought me a yoga mat yesterday because I want to start prenatal yoga.

This morning I have sore breasts a bit moody, I'm annoyed with yesterday, my dad and my other halfs mum. Thats all I have this morning, oh and yesterday I just got real tired real early. Im so annoyed so Im gonna stop blogging for now.

Belly Shot 

PREGNANT

March 12, 2012 I got up in the morning and decided to take a pregnancy test

And this was the result (two lines = positive, one line = negative)

I was shaking and just really shocked

I called up my fiance and told him the news

While breaking out into tears

He was calm

Made a doctors appointment

and took another test there and it came out negative

So took blood test

Fiance believed I wasn't pregnant

I knew I was

We waited eagerly to hear whether we were pregnant or not

When we were told we were pregnant I was shocked

And scared

But now I'm happy and I'm this big now (4 weeks and 4 days)

Nothing much besides a little fat haha

Mood swings have been quite bad

Always tired

Started spotting

In the mornings when I blow my nose

There's a bit of blood

I get head aches on and off

My body temperature always changes drastically

Eating a lot more

Finance is turning out to be quite a bitch

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When something negative is crystal clear

There is really no need to wallow in it

Everything is going to be just fine =)

I know it!